It is over 150 days, days without the smell of my home.

I changed a lot during this time, ppl change.
But the most obvious changes are probably the habbits.
Yet, I dont want to loose myself being a "kid".

Today after a refreshing volyball game, I came home, threw myself on the chair, next to the mirror. I looked to my right, and I found there a boy, that seemed to be a little unknown.

I kept staring at him...through the mirror.
It was still looking like a kid, but not much as I used to know..
the eyes were the same, still they had more depth than i knew..
there were not much silly smile was on the face !!
He was thinking more rational... I could not find much of spongebob in the whole appearance !

I am not homesick. It's not the reason I am writing this.

For a while, I have just lost my purpose.
I have started running a long time before, I am running still..
But suddenly I m feeling like I forgot why and when I started running.. it is already a looong time I have been running..
May be i m a little tired and that's why I cannot remember where am I supposed to go.

Well, I m still running !


And I m still throwing sweet candies to my fellow runners when they seem tired.
I am still throwing the same to the ppl i dont know, in case they cheer up themselves and give me back a smile.

Of course, sometimes, I just loose my candies, some ppl just take it and never understand or thank, some ppl even ignore it and throw it away, what a wastage. and Of course, some are still with me, even if I dont give candies often. They are not many, but who needs many of them?

I am still running.. I dont care much about the candies. Coz i can make candies, different flavors for different ppl, almost all of which are sweet ( I find it easier than making some bitter or sour ones), sometimes I make bigger, sometimes smaller, sometimes it takes me months to make a special one for someone special, sometimes i make it really fast skipping others', when someone badly needs some sweet.

I think i will keep throwing my candies.

Coz, I m still running!